Thursday, April 18, 2013

A Dose of Joy is a Spiritual Cure

"If you do a good job for others, you heal yourself at the same time, because a dose of joy is a spiritual cure."  ~Dietrich Bonhoeffer

I'm a giver.  I love to give in any way I can, be it financially, kind acts, word, etc. It brings me joy!

 There are so many great causes to support.  I have family members and friends that have battled and are battling cancer, diabetes has affected my family deeply, I've been touched by autism, and down syndrome.  I've been a foster parent and have great concern and care for the children in the system.  I love the work that Emergency Infant Services does and support them in many ways.  So, why did I choose to start project NICU?  I'm not helping find a cure for any illness, feeding the needy, or funding research. 

Because God gave me the NICU journey, not once, not twice, but three times.  Not because I was strong, not because I could handle it better than another.  But because I was tender, I was open.  I would use my experiences to help others. He gave me a testimony.  He gave me a great love and passion for itty bitty babies and their families. He gave me an understanding that cannot be grasped unless you've travel that road.   I didn't know it at the time, but I know God had a purpose.

 I came across the above quote and it's exactly how I feel about this project!  The only cure this project is aiding is healing of the heart and spirit. Not just the heart's of those lives we touch, but mine and yours. Those of us who give our time, money, prayers get a good dose of joy, a spiritual cure.  There's no great cure!

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Random thoughts

I've been following a couple of NICU babies on facebook and I can't get either of them out of my mind, praying for them often throughout the day.  If you'd like to read their stories visit

I also have another little guy on my mind.  One of our project NICU supporters has a son that has spent a lot of time in the hospital and needs lots of prayers.  I was honored to send him a blanket this week and I hope he and his family are comforted and encouraged by all the love and prayer that went into that little blanket!

I've finished three blankets this week.  Wish my camera was working so I could post some pictures. My sewing has improved a great deal.  The blanket I finished yesterday turned out nearly perfect!  I'm pretty proud! 

Now if we can just get some volunteers!  As much as I love sewing these blankets, I just can't seem to find enough time sew as much as I'd like.  I'd really like to get 40-50 blankets into the hands of NICU families every month, but I can't do it alone, I've realized. Some days I think I may have bitten off more than I can chew! But I know as the word spreads about project NICU the right people will hear and great things will happen!  I believe! 

For those that have volunteered and donated money, I cannot thank you enough!  Please keep sharing about project NICU!

This week we have six $20 gas cards going to St. Francis NICU.  Those cards will be given to families living out of town that need help with gas money to be able to visit their babies.  I cannot imagine not being able to see my baby because I couldn't afford the gas for travel! 

I saw this on facebook yesterday and loved it so much!  I think this is true for NICU families!

Friday, April 5, 2013

Just a Blanket

 How can a simple blanket make a difference in a persons life as they experience the devastation of a premature and/or very sick baby in intensive care?  It's just a blanket.  Right?

As a former NICU parent both having experienced a successful NICU journey and neonatal loss, I can say it is not just a blanket. It's a symbol of hope, encouragement, love, and comfort.  The blankets we received for our two babies we lost where the only things to touch our babies skin besides wire, tubes, needles, and doctors and nurses, before they passed away.  They are treasured momentos that would be devastating to me if lost.  They are nearly all I have left to remind me of my child that once was.  For my son that survived, thrived and is now 14, the momentos we received during our journey are still treasured and will be passed on to him someday.  The are reminders that we were not alone in our journey, reminders that there are loving, caring people around us.

I've heard from other NICU parents how a small gift like a blanket impacted their journey also.  I've seen NICU parents smile and get excited when they receive a special delivery for their baby from a complete stranger.  It means something.  So much more than just a blanket!

Here are a few comments I've received from other NICU parents about the gifts they received while in the NICU. (Not necessarily gifts from project NICU, but gifts in general)

*My son was born at 32 weeks and in the wonderful NICU at St John he received two blankets and a hat and it was the neatest keepsake I have! It meant so much that someone spent their time to make it for him!

*  My son although considered a full term baby was 3 weeks early and we spent a week in the nicu at St. Fran. He'll soon be driving but I still have the little crochet cap that someone made him while he was there.

*the nurses decorated his crib with homemade pillow cases that I still have and will always treasure as they were a symbol of normalcy in his tiny crib full of tubes and wires. God bless you for giving other families the comfort that I was afforded with those pillow cases

It's not just a blanket.......

14 hours, 7 mins

14 hours, 7 minutes.  That's how long my son, Luke, survived in the NICU.  It was a miracle he was born alive at all!  What was his purpose in life? What can a tiny human being accomplish in just 14 hours and 7 minutes?

This story is probably less about my NICU experience and more about how I learned what a hero a doctor can be even if he can't save a life and the legacy a tiny little guy can leave for his family!

 On April 3, 2008 I was 20 weeks pregnant when my water broke. We went straight to labor and delivery where I was told that my baby boy could be born at any time and that there was nothing that could be done to save him before 24 weeks. 24 weeks is considered the point of viability. (Although, I have read many amazing stories of survival at 23 weeks). I was sent home on strict bedrest to wait and see. I went to the doctor every few days for an ultrasound to see how the amniotic fluid levels were and to check on the baby. I basically just kept loosing fluid but baby seemed to be doing well. On April 30th at 24 weeks, I was miraculously still pregnant and was admitted into the hospital so that if my little boy decided to come into the world, the nurses and doctors could take immediate actions to try to save my baby boy's life. For 3 more weeks I remained on bed rest in the hospital. In the early morning hours on May 18, I began to have contractions and was sent to labor and delivery where they tried to stop contractions to no avail. I was in labor! I was sent to emergency surgery for a C-section just before 3pm. At 3:26pm Lucas James was born at 27 weeks, weighing 2lbs and 13 1/2 inches long. I remember thinking that if we could just get to 2lbs, everything would be okay. Again, I only got a glimpse of my little warrior baby before he was whisked away to NICU. Once he was stable, Dr. Michael Lenhart came to talk to us about our son's condition. Because he went so long without enough amniotic fluid his lungs were not able to develop properly. He would never be able to run and play like most kids because he would never have enough lung capacity. He was a very sick baby, but we had so much hope. We had made it so far since my water broke 7 weeks earlier. My husband Jim and my son, Matthew (10 yrs at the time) went to see Luke, but they couldn't go in because we didn't have a copy of Matt's immunization record on hand. ( I understand why they do this, but still, I was not happy about it!) They stood outside the NICU looking through the glass watching this tiny little boy giving the nurses a run for their money. He was letting them know how unhappy he was to be in an oxygen tent, tethered to tubes and wires!  He was fighting a good fight!  Matt told me he thought his baby brother was gonna be in trouble because the was punching the tent. LOL! And again because I had a C-section I couldn't go immediately to see my baby. Late that evening, I still didn't even have a picture to hold on to. Fortunately, my dear friend, Jessica Brown, went down to get pics for me. That would have to do til I could see him for myself. Around 3:30 in the morning on May 19, I was preparing to go see my son for the first time, when a nurse from the NICU told me that we needed to come to NICU right away, they didn't think my son would make it through the night. My heart dropped to the pit of my stomach. How could we possibly go through this again? I called Jim. He had taken Matt home to get some sleep. I went straight to the NICU. When I got there, there was Dr. Lenhart and, I think, 3 nurses working intensely around my tiny little fighter. One nurse came over to me and told me my husband needed to come immediately because they didn't think they could keep him alive much longer. (Jim and Matt were on their way) She told me they would have called sooner, but Dr. Lenhart had spent nearly 3 hours doing all that he could to keep my son alive. I could see it in Dr. Lenhart's face. He had truly given all that he had  but it wasn't enough. The pain on his face was almost worse than the pain I had in my heart. At that moment he was my hero, he wanted my son to live and he was heartbroken that he couldn't make it happen. I knew without a doubt, he had done everything that could be done and I appreciated that more than I could ever express. Jim and Matt finally arrived right about 5 am. We were taken to a private room to be alone with Luke, to hold him without wires and tubes, tell him good bye. 14 hours and 7 minutes after he was born my little Luke, my little warrior, went to be with Jesus. He was perfect, had his daddy's nose, his mommy's eyes and his brother's long legs. I was so heartbroken,
I started counseling to learn to cope with this loss. I remember the therapist asking me what I thought Luke's life purpose was. At the time I could only feel the pain what purpose could such a short life have? It took almost 2 years for me to be able to see that God had used Luke's life to put me where he needed me to be to fulfill His purpose. I am so thankful for the time I had with my son and miss him terribly, he is one of the driving forces behind Project NICU. Also I want to mention that the following week after we were home, in the mail came a note from Dr. Lenhart and attached was Luke's birth announcement from the Tulsa World. I hadn't even thought about clipping it from the paper. The fact that Dr. Lenhart took the time to do that, meant the world to me. Thank you, Dr. Lenhart! You are a hero and so is my son, Luke! 

A little update!

How I wish I was better at this blogging thing!  I need more hours in the day.  Between my family, my job (home child care provider to 7 small children), sewing and keeping up with facebook, there's not much time for too much else.  So today, as I sit here with my laptop, watching my little ones playing with blocks and asking me to look at their towers, I'm going to try to update on the progress of Project NICU.  I'm hoping to post a few entries today, we'll see!

On March 19, Project NICU delivered our first 40 blankets to St. Francis hospital. It was an exciting day for me, personally!  I talked with the NICU social worker about how project NICU got started and shared ideas as to help support and encourage NICU families.  I learned that a huge need is gas cards for families that live outside of Tulsa and are not able to stay at the Ronald McDonald house due to having jobs and other children at home or other reasons.  I was so fortunate that I live 2 miles from the hospital and could be there in minutes at any given time and never had to worry about how much money it would cost for gas to be able to see my baby. I honestly cannot image not being able to be there every day.   Unfortunately this is the reality for some families with a baby in the NICU.  As much as they want to be with their baby, they simply cannot afford the added expense of gasoline to travel to see their baby that is say 50 miles or more away from home.  Project NICU will now start raising funds and accepting donations for gas cards.  Any parent that wants to be with their baby, should be able to be with their baby!  It is crucial for a family to bond and a baby just does so much better when a parent is there with them!

My niece, Kim Patterson, has graciously volunteer to organize a fundraising event, Bunco for Blankets! It will be held at my house and we hope to have 24 people join us for a fun night of bunco and yummy desserts to support a good cause!  If you are in the Tulsa or surrounding area and you would like to join us, please visit for more info and to join!

We had an amazingly wonderful donation of $205, from the Sanders family.  They celebrated their beautiful, sweet daughter's birthday in March and in lieu of gifts they collected donations for project NICU!  I am so blessed to have this family in my life and honored to have them support project NICU!

We had to cancel our Saturday Sew Day for March.  Everyone was just too busy with the Easter holiday, myself included!  Another Saturday Sew Day is scheduled for April 20th! We desperately need sewing volunteers! But even if you can't sew there are many other jobs to do!  For more information about April's Saturday Sew Day visit

Project NICU is honored to be featured in the Springtime Online Vendor Event on Facebook, created by Kim Sanders!  There are several fabulous venders with amazing products being featured.  Check it out here

And just yesterday, my most favorite man in the world offered to donate $5 for every new "like" we got on facebook, up to $200 dollars and when I checked fb first thing this morning we had not only reached our goal of 40 new "likes" but surpassed the goal!  I think he thought we might get 5 or 10 new likes but a deal is a deal!  Cha Ching!

I also set up a fundraising page for project NICU through GoFundMe.  If you are interested in making a donation to support project NICU's efforts to provide blankets, hats, gas cards, etc to NICU families please visit  It's easy and secure!

I think that is all of the new happenings for now!